An Affair of Lifetime

a.

Seeing the apartment's billboard

Akutagawa’s life springs in my mind

We shouldn’t have moved here

Suicide is not an option

b.

She used to laugh about it

That if we don’t end up

Getting married

That option is still viable

I got angry at her

Why she didn’t believe in me

She kissed me to tell

You must learn to be practical

I told her we shouldn’t spoil

The life of others

Who said we?

I probably won’t get married

The way she said it

I wondered whether she passed

Civics during her school years

c.

When I told her about

What she said years before

She winks

I’m addicted to her

Like a cigarette

I smell of mint and vanilla

Once I meet her

d. 

Couple of months later

Adrenaline rush of meeting her

Was gone

Same old story of meeting her

Taking off clothes and 

Putting on clothes

Scared of getting caught

It's an adventure

Mental and physical

To meet someone else wife

At the same time lying to my wife

I could see the smoke coming out

Of kitchen

One cigarette had burnt my home

e.

A husband sits in the parks drinking

And spewing expletives without name

I want to tell him

Addictions are easy to get

But tough to get rid 

But how can I ?

I am responsible

f.

I tell to my sobbing wife

You choose to move in

These apartments

Which are entitled:

An Affair of Lifetime

Why blame me?

I am an emotional fool

You know